The Boyfriend Material

I know. I know. It has been over a week since my last update (it is actually worse on my other blog). I just got caught-up with my got-nothing-to-blog and lazy days. Just doing more roaming around in the real world and less internet hopping.

Just an update on my last real post, everything seems to be back to normal. I guess it was also my fault why I gave more time on observing the boyfriend and less attention on having fun. It was also triggered by an instinct or a hunch that something could go wrong. It was a strong feeling and I just couldn't help crying and getting worried. But I guess it is now resolved since I couldn't keep it any longer from my boyfriend. I told him what happened, what I'm currently feeling, and now everything seems to be uhm...? good.

Though something is hurting me right now. I indeed know that it is an old issue, which it took me just hours ago on admitting to him that there is something bothering me or hurting me. I couldn't blame why Macey was able to say that he is envious with his bestfriend's relationship with his girl. I know there isn't a perfect relationship, but I just can't seem to give everything that he expects me to give. I am lost in this relationship. Where am I going? How was I for the past years? All that I know is I'm good in taking care of finances, joking around, and also fueling conversations. Is that all I did?

Hmmm...
let me think...