The Boyfriend Material

Macey and I went out today. The date was something unplanned, and I was having second thoughts on whether to see him or not. I was suppose to have the time to myself, but I couldn't say no... and I just think that it's rude to say no to his offer.

We watched a movie while munching on some chips, went videokeing, ate (again) but this time it was dinner,walked a lil, and went home. That's what we usually do. Though I was giving more attention to the things that he do. Like how he reacts, how his voice changes to one tone to another, his facial expressions, how he looks at me and how he touches me.

It might seem to much for you, but I just want to make sure... that the spark and the love is still there, and not just plain care.

I'm aware of the changes, and I wish it didn't happened at all. Well I can't expect that what our relationship had years ago would still be the same on what it has today... It just became too easy, too predictable, and such... Maybe it's the reason why he has been acting kinda changed for the past weeks, or maybe he's just busy with all those thoughts on where to apply for his first job.

Though it's my choice to observe, not letting him know what are my thoughts. It is the core reason why I did not txted him for about 2 days, because I was filled with thoughts on what I have noticed.

I did have a good date. It was fun despite there was something lacking.